True Feelings

Let Someone Know...

If you can be bold enough  

to let someone know

 how you feel...

True Feelings should be shared.

Not driven deep inside yourself

for someone else to 

pry out of you.

Hiding those feelings 

from the person or persons

who should know exactly how you feel

or how they made you feel.

This is what you will leave behind when you are gone.

How you made someone feel.

That is what you will be remembered for...

How you made people feel.

My True Love is My ChevyMan

and I have spent everyday I have been given

Since August 19, 1978

making sure he feels my love.

He has been the best teacher for me

over many years

and he has a wonderful way of conveying his thoughts.

He was taught right from wrong

and raised by his parents.

I had the same raising up  myself.

I have been so challenged 

by the way he feels for the past year or more

and I can't seem to lift him above it.

I am not the one who has given him these feelings

so I am realizing that I can't get him past the feelings he is having.

I keep reminding him that the words he keeps replaying

need to be forgotten and forgiven and probably were only

a drunken moment that the devil himself laughs continually about.

I can't stand to watch him be torn to pieces.

He can't be in two places at once

and he can't help someone who won't let him help.

It is really taking a toll 

on My True Love.

My Heart keeps breaking

as it has for a long time

over the hurt that happens in this unkind world.

I don't like to see him hurting.

I keep reassuring him 

that the hurt he feels from this 

is not intentional 

and he should explain his feelings about this

but he has a way locking those feelings up

and not dealing with it until he can in person.

I have had a great test of patience

and it seems another is in store for me.

I have talked to everyone in this matter

and continue to till this day

because the Death Bed requests

I have been given

are so hard for me to grant

to two people 

I have loved over 33+ years. 

Boy does this hurt me badly!

I was able to grant my parents 

Death Bed wishes

and when I had finished the last request they had,

I felt so much better inside.

Make an effort to think about this.

How you make someone feel

is exactly how they will remember you.

Can you make someone feel love?

I sure hope so.

The Love I Feel 

is all that matters to me anymore.

Talking to my Family and Friends

and enjoying the words and feelings

are all that keep me going

with the ugly prognosis I have been given.

Looking back at the past 

is great to reflect on for me

because it reminds me of the blessings I was granted 

at that time.

Watching my ChevyMan 

tear at his heart is hurting me

and I can't stand it much longer.

Let your words and actions be kind always!

How would that make you feel?

Think of that...

My Nanny was not granted

one of her Death Bed wishes

but 

I was able to grant her request

she made known to me.

I made her feel good.

That makes me feel great.

What the heck are you waiting for?

Do that TODAY!

Make someone feel great.

You will be well thought of...

We have spent hours talking

the other night 

and that has been the best help.

Too bad the person he tries to understand

will not explain the reasons 

for a total lack of Love and Respect 

against a family that should be supporting each other.

I don't understand either. 

The hours of driving 

and expenses to make these trips

are something to be thought of.

Time that will not be given again.

Time that should be spent wisely

and with Love and Respect 

for All Sisters and Brothers.

Family needs to stick together

and not push each other away.

It was a request

made known to me

by both his parents.